Letter From An Entrepreneur
To my wife,
When the dawg gone heli (helicopter) kept flying over last night, I started praying in the Spirit and all of a sudden, I realized it (the noise) was gone. I was so focused on praying I didn’t even hear it (the helicopter) leave. That’s when God said to me “that’s what it’s like when you are focused on me, my peace is always around you.” As soon as I stopped praying (focusing on God) the heli came back. I repeated the process and it happened again, heli, and then the noise… gone.
We (the wife & I) had a conversation and I told you that I should learn to be clearer when sharing my thoughts with you. I (the husband) want to give you a look into what I go through every day. You (wife) say to me “I’m tired of working, struggling etc.,” well guess what… So am I (husband). “You think that it is easy every day for me? If I could I would switch places with you in a heartbeat. Listen, compared to my day, your day is a piece of cake. All I would have to do is get up and punch a clock and I know that I will get paid and deal with about fifty ridiculous people who drive me bananas. I could do that with my eyes closed and hands tied behind my back.”
When you (wife) leave home, I (husband) kiss you on the cheek, and watch you leave for work to give your family every opportunity to fulfill the dreams that we both have wanted for years. “You think I have a walk in the park”, the Husband says. “Well, let me tell you what it’s like for me.” The husband begins to convey his thoughts. Thought #1 I want my family to live a life that will allow their dreams to be fulfilled and lack nothing as you do. #2 I want my wife to live like the queen she deserves to be, #3 I want my children to know how to go after their dreams and not get stuck in the rat race like both of us and our parents.
Why? Because they deserve more and so do we. #4 Now the fun begins. I have to scrape myself out of the chair I am sitting in at my desk, put a smile on my face as if I got it all together and pretend, we will be fine as a family, all so that you wont worry. Hoping you will go to work and have the best day possible.
When you leave, I have to suck it up, dry my tears and work my ass off to make my business productive to provide a better life for the family. All of our businesses we have launched have opened many doors for us and given us opportunities we would not have been able to experience. Now, I feel terrible because all of those efforts I have put in have not produced the rewards that I dreamed about.
I fight off thinking about how big a failure I am due to the lack of my success. You talk about depression? Magnify the depression you are feeling times 100 and you might come close. Good day so, far right? Now, I am on the high of my day. You (wife) have worked your butt off 12-15 hours and more dragging into the house, I know you are hurting both mentally and physically. I once again have failed to provide any relief for you. I feel awful.
Guess what? I haven’t gotten to my relationship concerning the kids and what I believe their perception of me is for being a failure.
I am at the top of the world by night fall. Now I have to muster up enough energy and confidence to treat you like the queen you are and deserve to be treated. If I had known the risk of launching my own business was so great, and this could jeopardize our relationship, possibly losing you in the process, I would have made a different choice. Nobody tells you about this part.
I would work a 9-5, 10-12 job any day to make you happy and bring peace to our house. I wish someone would have told me.
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